Liely's Guilty Pleasures

Hi, As I'm writing this, I'm looking at my hamster. (Yeah, I know. Unlike a cat lady, I'm the hamster lady.) Anyway, back to my main point. I like looking at her. To know that she needed me to love and protect her. I don't know why but I feel a very maternal and protective instinct to my pet. I hope I would be like that too to my future kids. Hell, you have no idea how I long to be a mother. Hence, my fetish. Oh wait. You don't know about my fetish? That's secret, silly. There's no way I would talk about it here. I just want to love her till she died. Granted, hamsters gonna live a short life compared to human. But yeah, I love her very much so. I know this is a very weird entry for the day. But I just want to let that thought out first. Till next time. Lee.

Hi guys. It's October and I forget to fill in the September entry. Heh. Like anyone of you cares. But I do though.          Anyway, what can I say about last month... Hmm.. It was filled with preparing for the new semester, getting rid of everything shitty in my life and hoping a new hope. Making ways to a better way of living and finally seeing everything in a new light. Sure, I still have doubt of why I'm studying chemical engineering rather than my dream job of being a librarian, but what's done is done. I'm tired of swimming against the current.          As what my pollution engineering lecturer had said, leave if you're prepared or continued if you're braved enough. It seems that I don't have the steel balls that he had hoped we do and I continued. Just it will take times for me to find my spirit back after all the messes happened last semester. But damn, I did a whole lot of stupid stuffs. Stuffs that I ain't proud of but I nee...