Liely's Guilty Pleasures

Today is the last day of 2012. I bet that everyone would be in their loved ones arms right now or even with someone who they know dearly. Unfortunately, I will celebrate 'New Year Eve' alone. There's nobody besides me when I took a giant leap into 2013. Nobody that I could say honestly, I love dearly. It's just me and my laptop and nobody else. It seems that I will step into year 2013 in the wrong foot today. It's okay. I will be fine. I just have to be brave and step into this uncharted territory without anybody else help. This is the trouble that I has brought into myself and I have no right to blame it onto others. I just have to deal it on my own. Happy New Year!! 2013 Here We Come!           Therefore, Happy New Year!!! I'm afraid that I would not make it to write another post after 12 o'clock tonight and hope you guys have a better new year than I will. Happy New Year! The Wanderer In Uncharted Territory, Liely P.S. Liar Game would be ...

I just got back from Pasir Panjang, to buy books from my school. It failed. The school cooperative didn't open today. I went there with my mum, older brother and my sister with my niece. It was like a journey of hell for me. I just felt so left out when I'm with them. My depressing mode hits me like a tsunami today and now I have to pretend that we're all a perfect family? I don't think so. When my depressing mode hit, it will hit and I will really feel like I'm the bottom of the food chain right now. It was horrible. It was miserable. I can't even draw a smile for my aunts and uncles when we visited them. I felt so pathetic . Right now, I can't think of anything straight. It is like I'm in a sinking boat and about to drown at any minute. My head grows numb because of the migraine I had and I just really want to sleep and cry under my pillow. I have to let it all out immediately... Tsunami Girl, Liely

I have a weird thing happened today. I woke up from my sleep and then I just hit my depressing nerve straight ON! It was an awful thing. To wake up and realized that your life is so miserable. I have never woken up like this before. Maybe it's because of the dream I had earlier. I dreamed about things that I would never gain in real life. Also, I met someone. A little girl. No matter how I see it, the girl presence in my dream was a relief. She's just like a saver. I've met her before in my dreams and I can't believe I saw her again.           My mum, younger brother, older brother and his girlfriend went to Masjid Tanah for the night markets there. I am, practically, alone. There's only my dad in this house and we would never talk or have a conversation with each other. It's not like we have a bad relationship but it's just the way it is. That's my typical family.            Oh and, I watched 'The Breaking Dawn: Part 1' last ni...

Liar Game Good day! I'm reading Liar Game manga right now. It's really is an interesting manga. It's about a girl who got sucked into a game which require them to steal money from others by lying. I'm at chapter 29 right now and I gotta say it's not boring YET. I wonder whether I'll quit reading this manga temporarily like I did with Death Note . It's a good premise like Death Note is (for now, at least). A lot of people say that the female lead in this story, Nao is a wimpy and annoying girl but for me, she's just too naive and I have to say, she's a crybaby too. But guess what, without her I couldn't imagine myself to be in her position and who knows that she'll change into someone like Akiyama one day. Sometimes, I think, we need a natural character where we can relate ourselves into. What would a group of intelligent be use if there's no one there to question every single step that they did? We would be in total lost, right? I...

Yoite I just finished reading Nabari no Ou a.k.a. Nabari's Ruler . It was a very good story. I almost cried because a guy that I VERY like in this manga died. I thought that he'll be revive at the end of the story but he didn't. It was a very painful thing to read, actually. WHYYYYY???? It was Shiro before and now, Yoite!!! This is so~ not good for me. Lately, all the guys that I like in a manga (or anime) died before his time. I mean like, what the hell did I do? This is so unfair... *sobs*           I was a bit bored by the manga at first because I couldn't remember the name or the terms or a certain jutsu technique. It was confusing. It's not like I could blame someone for my poor memorization skills. But it started to pick up in the middle of the story. Even though it was interesting, there were a point in the manga where I had to force myself to read it because the story is already completed and I don't want to waste my time and ended up dropping it a...

Hahahahahahahahha ! I just watched the final episode of K . *spoilers alert* It’s disappointing. Shiro died and Mikoto died… I mean like, WTH??? Both of them don’t deserve to die… Arghhh, I’m crying my eyes out right now. Now I understand why the manga don’t use Shiro as the main protagonist but use Kuro instead. That’s because he will die earlier!! This is the second time I feel so devastated about a story ending, (the last time was Merlin). This is so not good for my heart. Until right now, I can't seem to grasp that it's already over. It's cliche but yeah... I won't see them again next week... *sobs* This is too sad. I want a second season and I hope that Shiro is still alive somehow. He managed to escape death once (or twice, IDK) and I'm sure he could do it again. Okay, Shiro?? I took it from here .         I couldn't write anything more because of this crappy shitty internet connection that I have right now. But I only have one thing to say. ONE M...

I just got back from another shopping trip of mine. This time, I went to buy some pens and my school bag. I just realized that this would be my last school shopping because next year I would be in my last form. I had no idea what to do next. I'm reconsidering to take Form Six somehow. Hmmm... Faber Castell pens         Anyway I bought a lot of pens. I love pen. It is my favourite thing to buy whenever I went into a shop. If I'm not mistaken, I bought 21 pens and one mechanical pencil. I feel satisfied! My favourite pencil brand is Faber Castell. I've used it since I was very young. My first story, ' Fairies and Warriors' was written by that pencil back in 2005. I want to keep using it until I'm dead tired of it!          Actually, that is not my real attention when I start to write this post. I'm actually want to talk about MANGA (what else?). When I was roaming the mall alone, I encountered a secluded section where there was many MA...

Merlin WHY?????!!!!! Why did BBC decide to cancel Merlin? I just found out the news in its Facebook account. Why!!!! Merlin is one of the best series ever and they decided to end it! This is not fair!! Although, at the end Arthur died (according to the legend), I bet they can drag the story long enough so that we viewers could enjoy it until we feel sick of it! Why did they terminate such a gem??!! I hate this SO MUCH!!           Okayyy... I calm down a bit now. *wipes my tears* An ending is unavoidable. I understand. (No, I don't actually!!) I bet if Merlin is living with us right now, he would kick their asses. No, I'm not joking. This is practically injustice to my mind. Now, I cannot see my playful Merlin anymore... *sobs* From what I read  (spoilers), the ending of Season 5 is something that kinda painful. Arthur died and Merlin continued to live until this day. I can't wait for it to premiere in my country. I bet I would cry a river. This is so ...

Good late evening everyone! I'm in a quite high spirit although I'm in a cold war with my mum. It's normal for us to get angry at each other and unlike yesterday, I'm in a TOTAL rationality right now. I gotta say that I had my times when I feel the lowest in my life (I'm sure others also have this trouble). You know what? Every time I'm rebelling against somebody, I would eat twice as much as I would. For me, food is a medicine (besides sleeping).          Utopia is a community or society possessing highly desirable or perfect qualities, according to Wikipedia. My Utopia is my Manga World. It's the only place in the world where I'm just an audience and nothing more. It's a beautiful world which everything is decided, not by me, but other people. Meanwhile, I'm doing the best job available. Watching and seeing what'll happen to the protagonist. I love it! Ryota and Himiko               By the way, I was reading Btooom ! ...

Okay, I'm a bit rational now. My life was at the tip of the iceberg just now. Somehow it scared me when I listened to myself talking about life and death. I was irrational, I'll admit. Well, I have my depressing times and that was one of it. Now, I can think straight although I have to admit that I'm still depressed. I'm afraid that someday I would hit this depressing mode when I'm in class or in the public because it happened before and let me tell ya something, it ain't pretty to have this ugly face in front of everybody and had to pretend you're fine even though you're feeling horrible.           Currently, I'm seeking my serenity in my MANGA WORLD right now. Somehow, it's the only way for me to forget my crappy problems. I don't know what I'll do if I don't have my manga because it seems to be the only way for me to feel at peace and have no care towards this world. You know what, I feel like I want to rebel somehow. Yeah, I wa...

I had a fight with my mum again. *horrible laughter* My world tastes like shit right now. Seriously, I cannot tell whether I'm insane or sane anymore. I felt like giving up. I can't stand this piece of shit world again. I had enough of everything in my life. I want to end it now. I feel so horrible of myself. I'm sick of myself. I don't think that I meant something in this whole family. I feel like I'm a garbage sitting in the living room. Ugly and smelly and done nothing good. I'm so tired. Even breathing seems to be a very hard thing to do right now. If things like these keep happening, I don't think I will survive until my eighteenth birthday. Seriously... Girl who's lost, Liely

This morning, I went to my school to retrieve all my text books for Form 5. Well, we had to wait for the teacher until 11 in the morning. Gladly, our homeroom teacher is the same this year too (Heck Yeah!). I was afraid that I might get Teacher Woon as our homeroom teacher. Thank goodness. Today, I met my long lost friends. Joyah especially. I miss her so much. To tell you the truth, since one month we were away from the school, I've never catch up with anybody latest news. It's fun! I met Bobby too, actually. She looks slimmer now. I lost my words when I saw her. I avoided her but we did converse a little bit (VERY little). Anyway, I don't want to talk about her anymore. It'll just depressed me.          My younger brother got her PMR result this morning too. It's bad. He failed English Language. He got all C for other subjects and a B for 'Technical Skills' subject. I still don't get how he can fail in English. Hmmm~.           It'...

Yesterday evening, my family and I went shopping for my school preparations. We went at 3 in the evening and got home after dusk. Well, many things happened...          Firstly, I hate shopping. On second thought, I don't think that I hate shopping. Maybe I hate shopping with my family. It's hard to born as a fat person in a family with slim people, you know. Well, my mum and dad is slightly overweight but they used to be slim in the past. Meanwhile, I was always fat in my life and remain a fatty until now. It pains me a lot to go into a shop and asked the worker there, 'Where is the larger size clothes placed?' Since I was a kid, I always had to buy L, XL, XXL sizes. I started to hate it. Every single time. I remembered when I had to buy some jeans for Eid and I had to try many sizes until I found the suited jean for me. The workers were laughing at me. I cried a lot after that and I resigned to myself that I won't go shopping any longer from that point onw...

Yupp! As I noted above. I found them. The manga of ' K '. There are two of them!  K - Stray Dog Story  and  K - Memory of Red.  Well, I don't plan to read them yet since the amount of current chapters are just to small. I will wait!          Other than that, no story to report. I'm still not talking to my mum though. We're getting good again and she's not mad at me anymore but for how long will this temporary peace last? I don't want to answer that by the way.           I read a few BLs in the morning today and one shounen manga just now. It's not that great to be talked about. It's rather disappointing. I think that the BLs I read this morning are more interesting than the shounen manga. Today's mood is not that great for me. It's gloomy, you know. PS. Here is my favourite anime song from ' K '. Tsumetai Heya Hitori by Mikako Komatsu. The song is VERY good. Love the bell sounds at the start of the song!!! I'm e...

I am ecstatic right now. I just finished watching the anime ' K ' which in my opinion is SUPER COOL!!! As I said that I rarely watch them (anime) and I watched it on a whim at first. But who knows? I love it so~ much that I almost cried when I watched the show. I started to realize that I might be one of those die-hard fans now. How the hell can I cry over some cartoons, is something that I cannot fathom. The art is gorgeous! The males are all handsome. The action is spectacular. The powers are amazing. Not even one single of the story ticks me off except for its short broadcast. Oh man, I'm going right under some deep abyss right now. It was as if I'm living in an another world when I watched the anime. *Spoilers* When Shiro revealed that he's Adolf K. Weismann, my heart leaps ! He looks so damn HOT and (sexy)! Damn it, I sounded like a lunatic again... I took it from here . This site got everything about ' K '.           I've watched...

My favourite character in Bleach, Kuchiki Byakuya. Well, I heard he's DEAD already! I just got back from watching 'Bleach '. Man, that was awesome! I've never think that I would be this obsess with manga and anime. In fact, I don't know whether it's good or bad for this soon-to-be last year student me. I guess in the mean time, I would just enjoy this short holiday of mine before the school started again next year. Mentioning about anime, I rarely watch them. I rather read the manga online because it's so much easier and they don't need to wait for it to load before you could play it. I know that by watching it, it is a lot funnier than by reading it down. But it is still a lot of trouble to watch it, on television or online.         Anyway, my first anime crush is Abel Nightroad from Trinity Blood . I was so young when I first saw the anime. I don't remember exactly how old I was but I was around 9 or 10 years old. The anime was aired at 12:30...

I found some interesting fact just now when I was roaming around the Internet. Did you know that in September 2th of 1752, the British empire and whole of its colonies had lost 11 days in their calendars? I quote, 'The British Empire went to bed on Wednesday 2nd September 1752 and rose on Thursday 14 September 1752, missing the 11 days in between'.           I thought that it was some kind of supernatural incident (I read too much of manga to believe in those concepts) at first but it's actually NOT. It happened because of the British Empire changed their calendar from Julian to Gregorian calendar because it seems that Julian Calendar is not accurate. I finally understand the whole thing of it when I read it from here . I took this picture from another blog. You can set this date into your computer and check it yourself. Only available to non-Windows user.            Another interesting fact I found today. Gregorian cal...

Hahaha... I fought with my mum again. I started to think that maybe I can't fit into this family at all now. We're always fighting to no end. Today fight is caused by another petty thing. My mum asked me to feed my niece.She told me to help 'em splitting the fish into half. I asked my niece, how the hell are you going to split that fish into half? (That's a sarcasm actually. I want her to take the spoon from the kitchen so that I could split that fish.) Then my mum responded by saying that  I don't know how to do chores and told me to just split the fish using my hand. Immediately, I flipped ! I don't know how to do chores? Oh man, I split that fish into half using my bare hand and I washed my hand and quickly went into my room. This is just too much! I'm tired of it. Tired of the never ending fights. I want it to stop.          Right now, my mum is babbling about some shits about me that I don't want to share it. I'm tired of it! Love, Liely ...

Well, I'm recovering from my cold. I thought 12/12/12 would be a good day for me but its seems that it wasn't. That reminds me to not think seriously about the superstitious things around me anymore.           Anyway, my family is heading down to a crisis right now. Since my father ex-colleague stepped down from the restaurant business she had with my dad, my dad had to change the ownership of the shop since it was previously owned by that lady. Then, I don't know why, the city council ordered my dad to open the restaurant until this 25th and after that we should wait for further notice from the city council on whether we can continue our business or not. Man, it was more complicated that I thought it would. I don't know what's the chances for us to get that ownership or not but if we don't get it, everything would head down to the toilet (it seems). I just have to pray for the best so that we could own that shop again and everything would come to normal again...

I'm down with cold right now. Let me tell you, having cold is sucks! I can't breath through my nose and therefore every single thing that I ate was tasteless. This is not how I'm supposed to enjoy my holiday. Not only that, every time I tried to swallow, my throat hurts like hell and it was like I'm swallowing needles. I wish I could be sick so that I won't have to do anything and lay on my bed all day but when I'm sick, I just don't want to be sick.            Again, like normal, I'm the only adult in house at this time with two of my nieces. My mum headed down to the shop with the rest of my family. I really don't know what to do if I suddenly fall asleep and left my nieces unattended. I am practically fighting my fatigue right now.            My niece already woke up from her sleep now. I gotta take care of her. Bye. PS. I found this post in my Facebook status. It does make today seems special, right?

Two serving of rice and sardine, two glasses of soda, a packet of chocolate bread and half packet of Oreo. I'm filled, honey! Just now my sister, dad and mum got home and they brought two boxes of fried rice and some fried squid (tempura style). I don't think that I could squeeze anything in my tummy yet. Crap! I guess I still can't loose my weight this year. *sobs*            I lost my manuscript for 'The Cruise' again today. It's the second time already. I think my auto-save is broken or something. Now, I have to transfer the new manuscript in another file before I log off. This is really started to piss me off.             Lately, I've been thinking to make a new story but in Malay language rather than in English like I usually do. I think I want to make some story that involved history. This is like catching two birds with one stone. I could write something and study about history in the same time. Well, I jus...

I've been busy with finishing up my 'The Cruise' manuscript lately. I changed my other blog's template. It's pretty! I love it! Now, I'm thinking of changing this one blog's template. It's just TOO green. :P Mitsuhashi and Itou          Anyway, I finished up reading ' Kyou Kara Ore Wa!! '. Its SUPER FUN! I have no regrets whatsoever  after I read it. Okay, the ending is unjust for the story but to rate it based on the whole manga, I'm very glad that I read it. Mitsuhashi is just a very funny guy. I love that awkward moment where a serious fight turns out to be comedic. The best thing of all, he NEVER lost to any guy (one on one, of course). It's a very pleasant reading. I've spent almost 3 days on this manga and I don't feel that I wasted my time at all. :)          Right now, there's no adult in my house at all. I'm the oldest one here, taking care of two of my nieces. I can't believe that I'm almost 1...

I found some of great pictures when I traveled the world of Google Images just now. It's really one of my habits lately. I would search for anything that crossed my mind at that moment. Random things. Then, I found these amazing pictures that I like to share. This picture of a homeless man was taken by Lee Jeffries. You can find the rest of this person works here . Millie and Mrs Ansell, The Bon Accord Nursing Home, Hove, UK. This picture was taken by Jocelyn Bain Hogg. Since I didn't know what avant garde means before, I tried to Google Images it. I tries avant garde hairstyle first and a lot of weird hairstyle popped out on the screen. Is this what avant garde means? These pictures are the ones that I mostly like from all of them. Somehow, they're nice. Okay, now it's food time. I checked a whole lot of sundae pictures as the reference of my story-making. I had to search for it since that I have never eaten any of them before. They sure look go...

As the tittle said, things really do start to change around me. My mum started to help my sister at the shop my family own. This morning, she asked me to wash the clothes and hang them out. It's as if I was given an order to take care of this house. I think I better sort this thing out. Is she asking me to replace her position in this house while she's working out at the shop with my sis? *sigh* Damn, I don't know what to think anymore.           Our life has changed a lot since my father's ex-colleague left the business. We have to take of all the responsibilities that woman has left us. I heard from my father yesterday that she has many debts towards the suppliers and now WE have to pay all those debt. If I wasn't mistaken, the debt was almost RM 700. Not only that, that lady also took some of the appliances in the shop before she left it. The bottom line is everything takes a toll on us. My brother is also has to help at the shop. Right now, there are only ...

Duke and Duchess of Cambridge Well, I just found out about this news but DUCHESS OF CAMBRIDGE IS PREGNANT! You have no idea how obsess I am with the Duke of Cambridge and Prince Harry and this news is totally a GREAT surprise for me. I've been waiting for this news since they got married. Finally! I can Prince William and Kate 's child. I can't wait for them to be born. According to dozens of articles in the internet that I've read for the past 30 minutes ago, her pregnancy is less that 12 weeks and their child would probably been born in June or July next year. Their child, if she/he is born will be in the third line to the British throne. Personally, I don't think that I would live that long to see their child rule Britain. My only wish is so that I could live to see William take the throne. That's it! Anyway, a bundle of congratulations for them. More importantly, I hope the child will be a healthy one.          Anyway, away from the royal news. I ...

Yesterday night, my uncle and his family paid a visit to my home. He's my youngest uncle from my father side. I called him, 'bapak' which can stand for 'father' in Malay. All of us called him that since long time ago. He came here with his wife and daughter. My uncle once committed suicide because he was heart broken. That was a thing in the past, you see. Now, he has a beautiful wife and a cute daughter. I could never be happy with that. If I'm not mistaken, he's a sailor. I remembered that he's celebrated last Eid on Malacca Strait rather than with his family. I had a bad relationship with him when I was a kid. I am the 'annoying' niece  type, if you could relate to. I'm not very good with neither family from my father nor my mum. I don't know why. People just love to hate me .            Anyway, that's not the point of talking about him. Because of certain circumstances, he told me that I have to take care of myself and make sure...

Time sure does move fast, huh? It's finally December. I can't believe that we're, I actually have another month before I enter my final year as a secondary school student. A MONTH. I promised to myself before that I would study very hard in this final month before 2013. *clench my fist* I AM GOING TO DO IT!            I was pretty occupied lately. I didn't write any replies to my online friends' messages. I just don't have the mood for it. Somehow I feel very bad for didn't reply to them as soon as I can. Currently, I found tons of manga to read. I'm in the mood for 'investigation' manga, you see. Don't be fool by the cover. The art inside is so much worse.            This morning I finished an ecchi (Google it) manga titled Remote. OMG, the concept of the story is very good. A soon-to-be-bride wants to collect money for the wedding and therefore she continued her work as a policewoman. Then, she involved with a specia...