I Found It!
Ya ALLAH. Terima kasih atas pemberian yang bermakna ini. Bantulah hambaMU ini dalam mencari cahaya hidayahMU dalam hidupku. Bantulah hambaMU dalam beristiqamah dalam menunaikan ibadah kepadaMU. Ampunilah segala dosaku ya ALLAH. Assalamualaikum, guys. Last Sunday, I finally found it. My light. The one thing that I kept resisting. I postponed it again and again. Thinking it wasn't my time yet. But the time came to me in the most weird way. It was again, due to a book. A love novel actually. But it wasn't the romance of it that woke me up but the religious aspect of it. A man who loved ALLAH. Who still finds HIM even when he lost his memories. A man that makes me realize I haven't met mine yet. One who would cherish me as much he did and yet love but without ever being physically close. I need that reminder in my life. It's hard to admit this but I did some grievous mistakes in my past. Some par...