Liely's Guilty Pleasures

Hello there... Starting from today I am officially release from this year syllabus. Yay!! It is such a relief after I returned all the textbooks. So, tomorrow I won't come to school! Even though we had Physics class tomorrow, it's such a burden to come to school because of the drama that our class would present tomorrow.           The title of the drama is Gulp and Gasp. This drama is in our syllabus for Form 4 poem's book. Sheggy was the one to be the narrator in this drama but today she didn't come and I was reprimanded by the great, Teacher Rosmi to become the narrator. The idea of being a replacement and the second choice is not really my thing but I had to do it. Talking in front of people is not my specialty. In fact, I am the worst person to talk in front of others. I will always stutter and misspeak. I thought I was a good person to talk with a microphone but I wasn't and that sudden realization is painful enough to my subconscious mind. Late...

Today, I came to school after 5 days holiday. And guess what? Two of my best friends didn't come to school today. Da hell, right? I was completely alone today. Thank god, Ambia and Jepun was there to accompany me. Plus, today was the day to return the textbook and I know nothing of it. So basically, I was nothing but a mere boulder inside my class because today we didn't study anything!           I have to go to school tomorrow because I need to return all of the textbooks (altogether 25 books of them). I wish I could return them today but what-the-hell, I didn't know about the change in schedule. It's okay, I keep reminding myself that all day.          Today also, Teacher Rosmi, my English Teacher had us practiced the drama that we will about to do this Wednesday. She asked me to find the suitable background music. Damn it! Why do I need to work out myself like that? I passed the task to Bobby. Well, I don't know if she k...

I just finished reading Jio to Ougon to Kinjirareta just now. The story is freaking disappointing. It had never crossed my mind that the mangaka would suddenly make a TIME SKIP all of sudden. Jio and Gin was about to kill each other when suddenly *pop* 500 hundred years later!!! I can't believe that I just waste my precious time to read this manga. The story was so damn interesting at first until the TIME SKIP! *sigh* What a let down.           By the way, I finished reading Shibatora until its current chapter which is 65 (If I wasn't mistaken). I ended it right on the final chapter of the short arc. Thank God!!           Away from my manga world, the current news about my life is TOMORROW IS MONDAY (or should I say today). I hate Monday. I hate Monday.. I hate Monday... Just imagining that I would see my Biology teacher tomorrow is so disheartened. I'm afraid to get my exam paper. Based on my observation, I have never go to school w...

Today I had to babysit my nieces and it was so freaking hard to get all of them behave well. I was all over the place. *sigh* This make me don't want to have any kids, you know? At first, they can be charming as hell with those baby-talking and chubb face but when they started to grow up, they can be annoying as hell. Breaking the cups, writing some kind of abstract mural on the wall or somethings.. I wish my mum would hurry up and get home fast the whole day.           Away from the pressuring stuffs, I had a fantastic day today of doing nothing. But still, today is good. Lately, I use to get very hungry. I could eat every two hours without feeling too much. Is it the weather or something?           I have a brother who is 15 years old. He has an insurance money and he'll get those money when he turned 17/18 years old. And his first request is he wants to buy a motorcycle. Damn, is that what you want the most when you got RM 10 000 ...

Happy Eid! Today, I had a lot of 'rendang' and 'ketupat' as my meal. It's an unusual Eid Ul-Adha this year. Normally, this Eid would be pretty low profile than Eid Ul-Fitr. But this year, we celebrated it in a more upscale style.          My parents, my sister and her husband along with my two nieces went to Serdang to meet my relative. They went at 9 in the morning and returned home at 6 in the evening. I woke up from my sleep at 2 in the evening. (lol) I like to sleep until its evening so that I could stay awake really late at night. Yesterday, I went to bed exactly at 6 in the morning, you see. I don't know when the hell I would go to bed tonight since I want to watch Running Man, Gag Concert and Two Days and One Night tonight.           Today, my sister's television broke down. The weird thing is after they found out that their television broke down after they got home today, they straightly went to Masjid Tanah to buy a new one....

I don't know what the hell I should do these free days. According to my plan, I want to study, read mangas, writing some stories but I don't know why but I don't want to do any of those.          There are times in my life when I stop and asked myself. 'What do you want the most right now ?' My answer varies from time to time. Sometimes I want to eat KFC cheesy wedges, sometimes I want to be in the arm of my beloved. But now, when I ask myself that question, I want to lay down on a green grassy field where there is nobody there. I just want to be alone and sleep under the sun. *sigh* How I wish that could be true right now.            Tomorrow is the Eid Ul-Adha. Somehow, I think this year Eid is more festive than the past years. My parents and my sister with her husband would go see my relative at the home. I can't go with them since they only go with one car. Including all the members in my house, I have 10 people living u...

What have become of me? It was just like yesterday when I was in kindergarten. It was such a bittersweet memories. I remember it well when I had a colouring competition when I was six years old. I don't know why but that is one of the few memories that I had when I was at that young age.           It was 10 years ago. I remember it well. It was a competition to colour a bear in the wild. I coloured the bear's eyes with blue colour pencil. I got the tenth place in that competition because of that. My dad was there with me. I remember him and with his cigarette on the tip of his lips. He was a great idol for me at that time. He can act so familiar to me and cuddled me every time he got home and dried my hair after I got out from the shower.. But he's different now. I guess he completely changed from what he was when I was a six years old kid. I don't know when he started to change but I realized his changes when  I started to grow up. The weird thing is he ...

I have done nothing that worth of brag today. It's just woke up from sleep, eat, watch tv, read my manga, nap, eat, and read my manga until now. I am not that typical of Malay girl obviously that likes to do chores and something like that.          I've thinking quite lot today because of my free time. I should start studying for my SPM. I should do something, right? These five days of holiday, I should make every each of them worth of studying. But I didn't. Somehow, there was something lost inside of me. I don't have that motivation to move on at all. I feel like I want to keep living in this moment without making any move forward. I was different. The one I used to be would be very excited to move forward. *sigh* This really makes me think. Which one of us is the bad one? The current me or the one I was?          I am still reading Amatsuki right now. The story is a little bit confusing but that 'confusing' part of it that keep me...

I had Add Math test today and I totally blew it off. It was the first time in my life that I'm absolutely sure that I will get an F for a subject. That is because I didn't do half or the question in the given paper. I just don't know what the hell the answer was. Oh my, I bet that Miss Tee going to say something hurtful about this.            Besides that, my relationship with Bobby is getting better. Not good nor bad, but hey at least we talk. My friend, Aishah was involved in an accident last Friday. Today, she came to school with a sling around her left arm. Thank God she's not left-handed.            By the way, I found another interesting webtoon today which is Crepuscule. I didn't expect that I would hook on that. It's about an orphan boy who came to the vampire world with his vampire friend. Later, his vampire friend left him alone with another person in the vampire world because of some complications. I found that t...

Physics. Physics is something that  truly confusing for me. At first, I like physics. It was fun because we investigate something that naturally happens around us such as flying aeroplane (Bernoulli's Principle), how submarine can submerge and float (Archimedes's Principle), land breeze and sea breeze (specific heat capacity) and others. I like it that way.. Until the stupid calculation come up such as pressure in water equal to depth(h) times density(Greek letter, rho) times gravitational acceleration(g), heat equal to mass(m) times specific heat capacity(c) and the changes in temperature(theta, 'C) and others.           Today test was Physics by the way. Physics have three papers. Paper one, objective. Paper two, subjective and essay. Paper three is about experiment. I totally blew up paper two and three. Shit! I thought pendulum was the experiment that's going to come out in paper 3 but it's the relationship between inertia and mass actually....

Right now, I'm still thinking about Fushigi Yuugi: Genbu Kaiden that I read this morning. The story was exactly at the climax when I stopped reading it. Shit! That is why I hate reading something that is not completed yet. Now, I have to wait another month for it to come out and the story is still freaking long.             *sigh* I guess I just have to bear with it for a moment. I didn't know that I would like it so much more than the sequel. Well, majority are right! This work is so much better good than the original one. I fancied it. I have a strict taste involving manga and I know which one is good and which one is bad and this one is good enough for me. Well (again), of course nothing can defeat Anatolia Story from my BEST MANGA list.            Talking about list, maybe I should state my favourite mangas of all time. I ranked it based on my impression right after I finished reading it okay. Okay, here...

... Do you have those moments where you just want to escape from your pathetic life?..           I do, a lot. I hate my life so much that sometimes I beg to ALLAH so that I won't see the daylight tomorrow. It has been my greatest weakness when someone's mad at me, I would get very depressed. I mean, depressed to the point of wanting to end my life. I am a weak person, I admit that even though sometimes I assure myself that I'm strong enough to go through all of these.       5 Minutes later Just ignore whatever I said. That's the teenage hormone talking. After a few laughter, I'm back to normal chief! By the way, I'm reading Fushigi Yuugi: Genbu Kaiden right now and I'm hooked! The story was freaking good! I'm at chapter 37 right now and I stopped for some release more. Can't wait for the girl to die! (I'm the type that like to see the female protagonist die in manga, you know.)

It's official. I won't be able to see the practical teachers anymore. Yesterday we had a parting ceremony for them. It was chaotic but we manage to keep it in check. We had the ceremony before our Civic Education test, so it was in a rush of course. We entered the class 20 minutes late but what the hell, Civic is not that important by the way.           Our class bought a big chocolate cake for them, Afiqah, a dear friend of mine, brought her cookies for last Eid. Ambia make sandwiches and some brought presents for them. I was totally oblivious about that and didn't bring anything for them. I don't know what kind of student I am. I should've at least bring something for them. But I didn't. So, at least I could do this for them. Teacher, thank you for all you've done. I've appreciate it. I hope that we can meet again in the future one day. I really hope for that. You are the first teacher that I'm very comfortable with. There were no teacher ...

Today is the last day for both of my practical teacher working in our school. Time sure went fast. It was as if they just came to our school yesterday. At first, I was like, "What the hell is the teacher teaching?" Then I was like, "I love this teacher". And finally, I'm all over the place, "Do you really have to go? Don't go yet."           But, we have to admit. Whenever we have a meeting, there'll be a parting. I'm sure one day, we'll meet again. Insyallah. If I can make it to that point, of course. I hope all of them become successful teachers that can produce many good students from now on. There are a lot of things that we learnt (or maybe not) from them through the teaching they gave to us but they did teach me one thing. 'Being a teacher is not as easy as it seems'. In fact, it make me thinking twice about being a biology teacher again. (lol)            Nevertheless, I hope we can meet again teachers. Good luck y...

Today is the last day for the week that I'll have any 'hard' paper. I will only have 'Islamic Education' paper tomorrow. Chemistry & Biology is done for me! YAYY!!         Chemistry's paper is so damn easy, I had to tell you that. But I did answer the question wrongly. I can't believe it at first that I would be so careless. I felt like want to hit my head on the table when I found out that I didn't do what the question wants. Damn it! Chemistry is the only subject between it, Biology and Physics that I really love. The others are hopeless for me already.           Biology is another one thing. I love biology. It's really interesting but the teacher who make it so complicated and I hate it for that. Biology is a subject where we learn about the beauty and amazement of science but she makes it so practical that I don't like the entire 'science' subject. Also, today I have a biology test. There are three papers for biology. The firs...

I was wrong. Bobby and I are still in an awkward relationship. I don't know what I should do anymore. Lately, I felt that I'm overwhelmed by life and study. I want some personal time but somehow nothing is going in my way anymore. It's just since this year, everything is hard. This is a very tough year, I must admit. I can't wait for this year to end.    Memories together with my buddies and Teacher Nana.

I just finished watching 'Take Me Home Tonight' movie on HBO. I have to admit that Kristen Stewart looks amazing with blonde hair. Talking about her, I really can't wait for Breaking Dawn: Part 2 hit the cinema. I wanna see Bella as a vampire! *TWILIGHT FEVER* Yay!          I have a Modern Mathematic test tomorrow and just to say, I'm pretty calm about it. A 'C' is in my hand, I think. I don't want to study that hard to get A for maths because I'm not that confident that even if I study like hell, I will still not get an A. Therefore, I shall take it easy and study at school! ( I know what I did is very wrong right now but I wanna live my live as long as I can, you know.)          The Cruise is still not done and I'm not sure I would continue to write it after this since that I feel very sleepy right now. By the way, the story is nearing the climax now and I can't wait to publish the rest of it after I completely done with ...

(The following are my notes throughout the day) 8:25 am I'll be answering my 'Islamic Education' paper any time now. To be frank, I'm really afraid right now. No one could totally comprehend the anxiety I'm feeling now. The migraine that I have right now for sleeping at 4am this morning really hitting me hard. 10:10 am Just finished answering my first exam paper for the day. Thank you, Ya ALLAH. Alhamdulillah. At least there's some question that I can answer. There's a lot of questions I'm stuck with but I moved on with it. My mind is more about the history paper that I'm about to have this afternoon. *sigh* I hope I can answer it. PS. I fell asleep for awhile when I did the paper. Oh and, it was when Mrs Woon watched over the class. I'm so lucky. 10:25 am Hey, when will this exam end? I can't wait to take a nap for a while. My eyes are burning and head is throbbing like hell because of the migraine.            Oh shit, my bud...

The title says it all. Tomorrow is Monday, or should I say today is Monday since it's 3:23 in the morning right now. I would have a hell of day tomorrow and seriously, I just don't care anymore. Go to hell with all of these stupids exam. I give up.

Alright, here we go! I decided to start blogging when I read this one article when we were doing some school work. It says that blogging has many advantages. So, I want to use this opportunity to start blogging and see where this thing brought me.           I'm a Muslim girl. I went to school somewhere in Port Dickson, Negeri Sembilan (which in Malaysia btw). I'm 16. A young girl, I know that. I don't see myself as a mature girl, not yet at least. I am the third child in a four siblings. Lately, I like to read mangas, a Japanese comic if you don't know. My favourite manga is 'Anatolia Story'. It's about a girl is transported back to the past because she is the sacrifice to kill all  of the Hittites royal family. Then, she met a Hittites prince and fall in love with him. The manga has more than 100 chapters so it's a very long story if I want to write all of it down. You just have to read it yourself.           I am, you can...

Okay! This is my first note. So far, I have publish 6 stories in my other blog. Proud of it. I have finally found a place where I can put my works. I'll think of other things to put inside this blog when I got a chance. Bye bye. Link to my other Blog ^^