Crossroad
Physics. Physics is something that truly confusing for me. At first, I like physics. It was fun because we investigate something that naturally happens around us such as flying aeroplane (Bernoulli's Principle), how submarine can submerge and float (Archimedes's Principle), land breeze and sea breeze (specific heat capacity) and others. I like it that way.. Until the stupid calculation come up such as pressure in water equal to depth(h) times density(Greek letter, rho) times gravitational acceleration(g), heat equal to mass(m) times specific heat capacity(c) and the changes in temperature(theta, 'C) and others.
Today test was Physics by the way. Physics have three papers. Paper one, objective. Paper two, subjective and essay. Paper three is about experiment. I totally blew up paper two and three. Shit! I thought pendulum was the experiment that's going to come out in paper 3 but it's the relationship between inertia and mass actually. Shit! Shit! Shit!!
Sheggy, a very brilliant Indian girl in my class got to answer all the questions perfectly. I did read a day before the exam, a whole book of it. Shit! (again) I can't believe that I've changed so far from last year. I was the most quiet and cleverest kid in my class last year. I'm not bragging but its true. I was the first in my school's entire history to get a straight A's in eight subjects in the pre-test. But this year, I felt that I changed drastically. I don't know what to do anymore. The teachers always complained about me and all of it are very painful statement.
I think that I like myself from this year a lot than last year. The person I was from last year was very angsty. I don't like being her anymore. She was somehow an evil person that always had bad thoughts of others. I really don't like her. Just when I started to feel very comfortable in my new skin, a teacher requested me to revert to myself from last year. Damn, does she know how I feel at that moment when she asked me to become like her again? It was as if the sky fell on top of me. How can she ask me to do something like that when it was the last thing in the world I want to be? *sigh* Now I'm at the crossroad.
Which one is important? My happiness or others?
Today test was Physics by the way. Physics have three papers. Paper one, objective. Paper two, subjective and essay. Paper three is about experiment. I totally blew up paper two and three. Shit! I thought pendulum was the experiment that's going to come out in paper 3 but it's the relationship between inertia and mass actually. Shit! Shit! Shit!!
Sheggy, a very brilliant Indian girl in my class got to answer all the questions perfectly. I did read a day before the exam, a whole book of it. Shit! (again) I can't believe that I've changed so far from last year. I was the most quiet and cleverest kid in my class last year. I'm not bragging but its true. I was the first in my school's entire history to get a straight A's in eight subjects in the pre-test. But this year, I felt that I changed drastically. I don't know what to do anymore. The teachers always complained about me and all of it are very painful statement.
I think that I like myself from this year a lot than last year. The person I was from last year was very angsty. I don't like being her anymore. She was somehow an evil person that always had bad thoughts of others. I really don't like her. Just when I started to feel very comfortable in my new skin, a teacher requested me to revert to myself from last year. Damn, does she know how I feel at that moment when she asked me to become like her again? It was as if the sky fell on top of me. How can she ask me to do something like that when it was the last thing in the world I want to be? *sigh* Now I'm at the crossroad.
Which one is important? My happiness or others?
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