Running Away From Home
Today I dreamed about something something that's quite scary. I dreamed that I ran away from home. For all these years, I always thought about running away from home but this is the first time I dreamed about it. I know that the situation that I have in my hand is not that critical which can lead me to run away but sometimes I do hope that I could run away from this constricted world of mine, thus running away from all my trouble. But I realized something that I didn't consider at first when I hope this kinda thing. I would be alone.
My dream was really realistic, you know. From my blurry memories, I remember that I went into a car of someone I know. He was a guy. Actually, if I wasn't mistaken, there were two guys that helped me run away. At first, I remembered that I was packing my things when the dream began. Then I went downstairs and entered the car with the two men. One of the men went out from the car and we talked for awhile. He asked me whether I really want to do this (running away) and I answered yes. I dunno why I was so frustrated at that moment. I don't think that I want to run away from home right now. After that, I met a friend of mine, Bobby. She saw me with my big bag and asked me where I'm going to. The previous guy that I'm talking to, distracted her while I entered the car that's waiting for me. After that, we left the other guy there and went ahead to some place that I don't know. Suddenly, we met my teacher, Teacher Azian on our way. She saw me inside the car and she suspected something happening to me. A moment later, my conscience tugged my heart. 'I wanna go home', 'I don't wanna be here'. I realized that the decision to run away from home is totally wrong. It had never crossed my mind that I was dreaming at the moment. All I hope was my dream proves to be just another dream of mine. I asked the man inside the car to turn around so that we take the other guy but my actual intention was to escape from the car after that. The man turned the car around and after a while, we arrived to some place (I can't remember much). When arrived there, I saw Teacher Azian and Bobby. They tried to stop me from running away. They were talking about something to me. Among of the words that I remembered were, 'I shouldn't do that'. After that, I couldn't remember anything but hoping everything was a dream. Thank god, it was.
Because of that, I know that running away from home is a bad option. I shouldn't run away. For a second, I got the feeling that if I step out from this house, I would have nobody to hold onto. I would be alone. Being alone perhaps sometimes be a good thing but in this case, it's not a good thing. For the last 17 years, I've been taking things for granted and complained if things won't go in my way but I forgot to realize that along those times, I've been surrounded by many people that help me go through my worst and best moment. Yeah, of course sometimes I hate people and my life but it would be lame to think that I am alone because no matter what I will always have somebody next to me. No matter what challenge or hurdle I have to go through, I will always have ALLAH.
My dream was really realistic, you know. From my blurry memories, I remember that I went into a car of someone I know. He was a guy. Actually, if I wasn't mistaken, there were two guys that helped me run away. At first, I remembered that I was packing my things when the dream began. Then I went downstairs and entered the car with the two men. One of the men went out from the car and we talked for awhile. He asked me whether I really want to do this (running away) and I answered yes. I dunno why I was so frustrated at that moment. I don't think that I want to run away from home right now. After that, I met a friend of mine, Bobby. She saw me with my big bag and asked me where I'm going to. The previous guy that I'm talking to, distracted her while I entered the car that's waiting for me. After that, we left the other guy there and went ahead to some place that I don't know. Suddenly, we met my teacher, Teacher Azian on our way. She saw me inside the car and she suspected something happening to me. A moment later, my conscience tugged my heart. 'I wanna go home', 'I don't wanna be here'. I realized that the decision to run away from home is totally wrong. It had never crossed my mind that I was dreaming at the moment. All I hope was my dream proves to be just another dream of mine. I asked the man inside the car to turn around so that we take the other guy but my actual intention was to escape from the car after that. The man turned the car around and after a while, we arrived to some place (I can't remember much). When arrived there, I saw Teacher Azian and Bobby. They tried to stop me from running away. They were talking about something to me. Among of the words that I remembered were, 'I shouldn't do that'. After that, I couldn't remember anything but hoping everything was a dream. Thank god, it was.
Because of that, I know that running away from home is a bad option. I shouldn't run away. For a second, I got the feeling that if I step out from this house, I would have nobody to hold onto. I would be alone. Being alone perhaps sometimes be a good thing but in this case, it's not a good thing. For the last 17 years, I've been taking things for granted and complained if things won't go in my way but I forgot to realize that along those times, I've been surrounded by many people that help me go through my worst and best moment. Yeah, of course sometimes I hate people and my life but it would be lame to think that I am alone because no matter what I will always have somebody next to me. No matter what challenge or hurdle I have to go through, I will always have ALLAH.
A Girl Who Loves to Dream,
Liely
P.S. I've stopped writing for the moment. I don't think that I would have the time to write my stories in the middle of this chaotic world of mine.
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