Aung San Suu Kyi, Another Fight

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Aung San Suu Kyi
Haha.. You must be puzzled by my post today. Actually, I just finished watching 'The Lady' movie based on one of the most popular female political figures in the world, Aung San Suu Kyi. Well, I gotta say that knowing about her made me a better person. As soon as I finished watching the movie, I googled her name. I know her name before and what she did but I've never knew that she was that BIG!

        But, knowing her does make me a better person. She is so petite but look at what she is capable of. I'm amazed at how sometimes humanity made me ashamed at myself and proud at the same time.

           Anyway, let's talk about me. Do you want to know something? I had another fight with my mum. As our previous argument, our fight started with silly things we did/said to each other. Well, I should know that peace can't last forever. No matter how much I try to avoid it, I know we'll fight again. *SIGH* I'm so tired of this. I can't wait to get out from this house and run far far away from here.

            I'll admit that it was ALL MY FAULT. It is because of me that we're kept fighting everyday. I am a stubborn girl, I know that fact clearly. But, I don't know why, I just can't seem to lower my ego at all towards my mum. I hate to admit defeat (or is it embarrassment?). If I can, I never want to lower my ego to anyone unless I feel that I am 100% wrong.

            Therefore, I'm sorry mum. I'm sorry that you have such a stupid, brainless, egoistic, lazy, fat-ass, evil daughter. I want to change myself but changes took times. And sometimes, I think I go a thousand miles away from my old self but because of that 'one trigger' you gave me, I reverted back. I know that my presence just clouded your world. I know that without me, you and your family would be so much better. I know that my existence is just a mere burden. I do wish sometimes that I wasn't born in this family so that you can be a lot happier. I wish for your happier so much more than mine. I just hope you realize that despite my idiot self and bad behaviour. My hands is shaken with the mist of reality when I wrote these words. You have no idea how I hope I could disappear from this world without any traces.

              Now I understand completely Yoite's (Nabari No Ou manga) intention when he didn't want to exist in this world but he doesn't want to die either. He just want to 'not' exist so that nobody will bother themselves after he has gone. At least, he got what he wants.

Easily Depressed Girl,
Liely

P/S I was supposed to have a school-break additional class today but due to my argument with my mum, I didn't think I would go today.

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