A Break!, Latest Update About Myself
Hi there you guys!! I miss my blog so muchhh... I am so~ busy lately with my school works. Sometimes, even breathing seems to be a hard task. Everything is fine with my mum. I don't know when we reconciled but our relationship is going smooth for now. It is typical in my family anyway. We are the types that don't apologize when we did something wrong BUT we reconcile by kindness that we did to each other. In fact, it is sorta embarrassing to say 'I'm sorry, mum' to my mum (unless it is Eid of course).
On the other hand, my relationship with Bobby is getting worse. I don't know why but I can't seem to reconcile properly with her after our big fight last year. We did talk to each other but in my opinion, it was soulless. Neither I nor Bobby want to clean our milky relationship.
One more thing, it is kinda annoying when people don't say 'HI' to me first, whereas I say that word everyday . In one perfect example, I always say 'Hi' to Bobby and my dear friend, Zek. To them, it was like a symbol to start the conversation. One day, I decided not to say 'Hi' to them first and you know what, BOTH of them never talked to me and they pretended that I was air. I mean like, seriously... Come on, girls! Why do I have to say 'Hi' everyday so that we can talk? Sometimes I am tired when there is no give-and-take in a friendship, you know.
Do I need to say that's why I was more mad at Bobby? Ever since last year, she's been like that. Oh dear, I don't want to talk bad about her but she does need to change her attitude a little bit. Now, I can clearly see one of her weaknesses. It made me realized that she is not who I imagined her to be...
Anyway Bobby, I don't know whether you'll see this post or not. But if you did somehow manage to encounter this secret blog of mine, just know that I am not trying to push you off the cliff. I am, without a doubt, sometimes disappointed of you. I'm sorry if you're hurt by my opinion but listen to this.. I AM MORE HORRIBLE THAN YOU ARE.
In my opinion, we are too similar that it makes me uncomfortable with it. As you know, a North pole magnet CANNOT get along with another North pole magnet. We won't get along. And here I was, thinking that we can get along when the reality is NOT. Our fight, in one way or another, made me realize to find someone who isn't as similar to me one day. Cause, it is painful when you fight and neither one of you wants to raise the flag. We have such a high pride and ego that refrain ourselves to bow in front of our own mistakes (although mostly it was mine).
I'm sorry.
On the other hand, my relationship with Bobby is getting worse. I don't know why but I can't seem to reconcile properly with her after our big fight last year. We did talk to each other but in my opinion, it was soulless. Neither I nor Bobby want to clean our milky relationship.
One more thing, it is kinda annoying when people don't say 'HI' to me first, whereas I say that word everyday . In one perfect example, I always say 'Hi' to Bobby and my dear friend, Zek. To them, it was like a symbol to start the conversation. One day, I decided not to say 'Hi' to them first and you know what, BOTH of them never talked to me and they pretended that I was air. I mean like, seriously... Come on, girls! Why do I have to say 'Hi' everyday so that we can talk? Sometimes I am tired when there is no give-and-take in a friendship, you know.
Do I need to say that's why I was more mad at Bobby? Ever since last year, she's been like that. Oh dear, I don't want to talk bad about her but she does need to change her attitude a little bit. Now, I can clearly see one of her weaknesses. It made me realized that she is not who I imagined her to be...
Anyway Bobby, I don't know whether you'll see this post or not. But if you did somehow manage to encounter this secret blog of mine, just know that I am not trying to push you off the cliff. I am, without a doubt, sometimes disappointed of you. I'm sorry if you're hurt by my opinion but listen to this.. I AM MORE HORRIBLE THAN YOU ARE.
In my opinion, we are too similar that it makes me uncomfortable with it. As you know, a North pole magnet CANNOT get along with another North pole magnet. We won't get along. And here I was, thinking that we can get along when the reality is NOT. Our fight, in one way or another, made me realize to find someone who isn't as similar to me one day. Cause, it is painful when you fight and neither one of you wants to raise the flag. We have such a high pride and ego that refrain ourselves to bow in front of our own mistakes (although mostly it was mine).
I'm sorry.
A Horrible Friend,
Liely
P.S. I don't know why I am too emotional tonight.
P.P.S. I felt horrible when I yelled at Bobby when we were discussing about our English Language presentation. It was my 'time of the month', you see? So, I wasn't very stable at that moment.
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