A Couple of Sleepless Nights
I think I have some kind of insomnia or something. I haven't been able to sleep properly lately. Every time I tried to close my eyes, my brain started thinking and planning for when I finally went to the college.
The dreadful orientation week? The living in the dorm? The stressful college life? The syllabus? The friends I'm about to make? Will they like me? Or will I have the same trouble of making friends again? The clothes I'll wear? The lecturer I'll face? Will they like me? Or will I become another obnoxious student to them? The money for my every day breakfasts, lunches and dinners?
Oh god, the money. That is my main problem. It all comes down to money. Sport shoes? Tudung? Track pants? Long-sleeved shirts? Brooches? Normal everyday shoes? So many things to buy in such limited times. The only thing that eased me right now is that the college is 15 minutes drive from where I currently live. That's it.
Anyhow, as long as I'm not 100 percent prepared for my new transition as a college student, until then, I am restless. I'll just have to take one step at a time. First step, print the document papers in my pen drive. Then, pay the college the fee. After that, make my own account bank at BSN bank. Then, register my name online on the college website. After that, SHOPPING hopefully for my college suppliances. Finally, register on May 26 at the college.
That is all for now. I'll talk to you guys later. Bye.
P.S. I read some BL manga yesterday. OMG, the fujoshi in me reappeared for awhile back then. I don't know whether to feel relief that I haven't lost that part of me or pissed off that she is still there in my subconscious mind. By the way, I realized that I am good in compartmentalizing stuffs in my head. It was like I have two different point of views toward stuffs. When I read the BL yesterday, I realized that I am still in love in them like the last time I read them. That sounds so different from me who read Lover At Last last Friday.
The dreadful orientation week? The living in the dorm? The stressful college life? The syllabus? The friends I'm about to make? Will they like me? Or will I have the same trouble of making friends again? The clothes I'll wear? The lecturer I'll face? Will they like me? Or will I become another obnoxious student to them? The money for my every day breakfasts, lunches and dinners?
Oh god, the money. That is my main problem. It all comes down to money. Sport shoes? Tudung? Track pants? Long-sleeved shirts? Brooches? Normal everyday shoes? So many things to buy in such limited times. The only thing that eased me right now is that the college is 15 minutes drive from where I currently live. That's it.
Anyhow, as long as I'm not 100 percent prepared for my new transition as a college student, until then, I am restless. I'll just have to take one step at a time. First step, print the document papers in my pen drive. Then, pay the college the fee. After that, make my own account bank at BSN bank. Then, register my name online on the college website. After that, SHOPPING hopefully for my college suppliances. Finally, register on May 26 at the college.
That is all for now. I'll talk to you guys later. Bye.
Anxious For A Change,
Liely
P.S. I read some BL manga yesterday. OMG, the fujoshi in me reappeared for awhile back then. I don't know whether to feel relief that I haven't lost that part of me or pissed off that she is still there in my subconscious mind. By the way, I realized that I am good in compartmentalizing stuffs in my head. It was like I have two different point of views toward stuffs. When I read the BL yesterday, I realized that I am still in love in them like the last time I read them. That sounds so different from me who read Lover At Last last Friday.
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