Lost in a Crowd of People

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I'm back and this time I'm black. My hands are shaking as I write this. God, I feel so horrible about myself. I can't believe that I'm having this attack in class. I am so desperately want to draw blood right now. I feel so dirty and useless. So deep down and unsalvageable. No one can save. No one wants to.

As I sit here in this room, accompanied by 40 other students, I have never feel so alone. It's so true about what they say. You can be around a lot of people and yet can feel so alone like you're the only person in the world.

I'm putting smile on my face right now, getting ready for another class. Pray I'm going to make it okay at the end of the day.

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