He's Recreating The Past Again.
Have ever I told you guys why 'cheating' is a big trigger or irk for me in books? If I did, well, I'm telling it all over again. It all comes down to the one single person who has been in my life ever since my beginning. My dad.
To be honest with you guys, I think my dad is a serial adulterer (if that's still the term nowadays). Hell, I don't know how to tell the story without bad-mouthing my dad but he just won't learn from his past. One of my earliest memories, I think I was about four or three years old at the time, I wasn't in the kindergarten yet at the time, I remember my mom brought my little brother and me to one of his women's place. She basically dragged us and confronted her. Then, my dad came and brought us back home. I didn't remember what they were talking about but I remember the feeling. It was utter devastation. I remember my mom cried and fought with him. Telling him just to stop his stupid ways of life as he had two little kids at home who needed him. I remember holding my little brother's hand in the back of the car, just staring at them. Not understanding but yet the lesson was embedded in me.
Despite what my childhood had been, my elder brother and my sister insisted that he recovered after that. He paid more attention in our lives. Though I have to say, I remember that there was only me, my mom and my little brother a lot in my earliest memories. The first time I pierced my ears for earrings, the first time we took photographs to get into kindergarten, our frequent visits to my grandma's home, our kindergarten's competitions. Though I have to admit, he did get better for awhile.
Then, came Mrs S. A widow whom my dad started his restaurant's business with. Then, it started again. This continued on for less than a year. Then it stopped.
I finally thought that this would be it. My dad would stop. Hell, guess what happened today? We accidentally encountered my dad sending his new 'scandal' home. You have no idea how that broke my heart today. I just newly found my faith in men and he totally crushed it. Why won't he learnt? Sometimes, he was one of the reasons why I pledge not to get married forever. I just can't forgive him for that.
That is all I can share for now. Have to calm myself down now.
To be honest with you guys, I think my dad is a serial adulterer (if that's still the term nowadays). Hell, I don't know how to tell the story without bad-mouthing my dad but he just won't learn from his past. One of my earliest memories, I think I was about four or three years old at the time, I wasn't in the kindergarten yet at the time, I remember my mom brought my little brother and me to one of his women's place. She basically dragged us and confronted her. Then, my dad came and brought us back home. I didn't remember what they were talking about but I remember the feeling. It was utter devastation. I remember my mom cried and fought with him. Telling him just to stop his stupid ways of life as he had two little kids at home who needed him. I remember holding my little brother's hand in the back of the car, just staring at them. Not understanding but yet the lesson was embedded in me.
Despite what my childhood had been, my elder brother and my sister insisted that he recovered after that. He paid more attention in our lives. Though I have to say, I remember that there was only me, my mom and my little brother a lot in my earliest memories. The first time I pierced my ears for earrings, the first time we took photographs to get into kindergarten, our frequent visits to my grandma's home, our kindergarten's competitions. Though I have to admit, he did get better for awhile.
Then, came Mrs S. A widow whom my dad started his restaurant's business with. Then, it started again. This continued on for less than a year. Then it stopped.
I finally thought that this would be it. My dad would stop. Hell, guess what happened today? We accidentally encountered my dad sending his new 'scandal' home. You have no idea how that broke my heart today. I just newly found my faith in men and he totally crushed it. Why won't he learnt? Sometimes, he was one of the reasons why I pledge not to get married forever. I just can't forgive him for that.
That is all I can share for now. Have to calm myself down now.
Sincerely,
Lee
P/S: I have now encountered a new type of people. The one that is ruthless in what they want and only accept what they want. Is that characteristic good? I know it's good to be accurate in what you want. But in cost of others? I seriously thinking in dropping from my GOP. It's not what I imagined. I thought we would be a family and yet it was like to be in an abusive relationship with a verbal sadist or dictatorship. This is not what I imagined.
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