No Problem... Okay, Just A Little.
Hey there! I had a fantastic day, today. My school thing went well. NO PROBLEM at all. Other than the fact that someone who sits next to me had a terrible day today.
My relationship with my mum is going well. I gave in to the pressure, if you understand what I'm saying. At the end of the day, no matter how hard I sulk or protest against my mum, she will never try to change according to my behaviour. She will always be herself and refuses the changes that I try to reach. I get it now. I told myself that you just have to deal with it alone. No one in this family knows what it takes to be someone like me. I just have to shut down my feelings and accept it like it are.
Although I tried to keep the positivity in myself, I can't help but feel hurt sometimes. Today, my mum bought new wristwatches for my younger brother and I. She bought an expensive watch for my younger brother but for me, she just bought a cheap one. That's when I almost got into the same mode again. Why did she buy me a cheap one whereas my younger brother got an expensive one? I couldn't help but feel depressed about that. She also promised me to buy a new spectacle for me but she didn't. I don't know whether she forgot about it or she just doesn't want to be bothered by something so insignificant like this. Right now, as I said, I ignored that depressing feeling and move on.
My relationship with my mum is going well. I gave in to the pressure, if you understand what I'm saying. At the end of the day, no matter how hard I sulk or protest against my mum, she will never try to change according to my behaviour. She will always be herself and refuses the changes that I try to reach. I get it now. I told myself that you just have to deal with it alone. No one in this family knows what it takes to be someone like me. I just have to shut down my feelings and accept it like it are.
Although I tried to keep the positivity in myself, I can't help but feel hurt sometimes. Today, my mum bought new wristwatches for my younger brother and I. She bought an expensive watch for my younger brother but for me, she just bought a cheap one. That's when I almost got into the same mode again. Why did she buy me a cheap one whereas my younger brother got an expensive one? I couldn't help but feel depressed about that. She also promised me to buy a new spectacle for me but she didn't. I don't know whether she forgot about it or she just doesn't want to be bothered by something so insignificant like this. Right now, as I said, I ignored that depressing feeling and move on.
A Girl with a New Watch,
Liely
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| JonBenet Ramsey |
P.S. I just got back from reading an article about JonBenet Ramsey who died in December 25th, 1996 when she was 6 years old. It's another best example for cruelty against children. She's so pretty, right?
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