Boring, Trust
It's been quite sometimes (a few days) since I wrote something in my blog. Well, that is because of the shitty internet connection that I have here and the fact that I'm writing a new story called 'Lux' (temporary title) right now.
Right now, there are only two bars in my internet access icon. I'm freaking right now. If I can, I would bring this laptop of mine closer to the access point but the access point is in my sister house. I don't want to disturb them at night like this.
I just finished watching Running Man with Moon Geun Young as the guest star. It's fun. I didn't expect that Yoo Jae Suk is the X-Man. He didn't show any obvious move at all. I had a straight korean variety show today. It started with Gag Concert, Two Days and One Night and ended with Running Man. In Gag Concert, there are three segments that I really like. There are the Discoveries In Life, Uncomfortable Truth and Brave Guys. I just adore them. In Uncomfortable Truth, I like it when the host tells the story that most likely happens in Korean dramas. It's so warm and fuzzy with a tinge of chill when I watch the program.
Today, I went to school after skipping it for two days. Let me tell you something, the school is getting boring everyday. I went to school today and expect that I would at least learn something. But, I didn't. The only subject that I learned today was Additional Mathematics. If it wasn't for it, I would never come to school. Teacher Tee, as far as I ever study from her, is the only teacher that teach us even though it is the last day in school. She made my presence at school worth it today.
Besides that, I also met Bobby today. Well, how should I put this into words. I didn't talk directly at her today. I don't know why I didn't. It's such a shock to myself that I could fight with her until this long. I don't remember the specific date when I fought with her but it happened in Thursday when we were in Chemistry laboratory. We fought over something that I said about her when she didn't come to school the day before. It was probably more than a month ago. I hate to admit this myself but when I fight with someone, I fight till the end. I had a fight with another classmate of mine, Kho because I mock his father's name (I was childish at that time and I don't know the boundary between jokes and mocks). I had the fight when we were 13 or 14 (I don't remember well) and until now we're still hardly talk to each other. He does talk to me like usual but I have never start a conversation with him. It's just hard to let people trust you again after I betrayed their trust, you know, although it is my fault to begin with. That is the same feeling that I have with Bobby. I betrayed her trust and I know it's hard to build it back after that. That's why I stopped talking to her. I just don't want to build that trust back. I don't know why. Maybe I was afraid that wall of trust will crumbling down again.
PS. I've done reading Jin for the moment. I wanna find some interesting BL manga after this, LOL. Besides that, I also heard that the Gulp and Gasp drama went well. Yay!
Right now, there are only two bars in my internet access icon. I'm freaking right now. If I can, I would bring this laptop of mine closer to the access point but the access point is in my sister house. I don't want to disturb them at night like this.
I just finished watching Running Man with Moon Geun Young as the guest star. It's fun. I didn't expect that Yoo Jae Suk is the X-Man. He didn't show any obvious move at all. I had a straight korean variety show today. It started with Gag Concert, Two Days and One Night and ended with Running Man. In Gag Concert, there are three segments that I really like. There are the Discoveries In Life, Uncomfortable Truth and Brave Guys. I just adore them. In Uncomfortable Truth, I like it when the host tells the story that most likely happens in Korean dramas. It's so warm and fuzzy with a tinge of chill when I watch the program.
Today, I went to school after skipping it for two days. Let me tell you something, the school is getting boring everyday. I went to school today and expect that I would at least learn something. But, I didn't. The only subject that I learned today was Additional Mathematics. If it wasn't for it, I would never come to school. Teacher Tee, as far as I ever study from her, is the only teacher that teach us even though it is the last day in school. She made my presence at school worth it today.
Besides that, I also met Bobby today. Well, how should I put this into words. I didn't talk directly at her today. I don't know why I didn't. It's such a shock to myself that I could fight with her until this long. I don't remember the specific date when I fought with her but it happened in Thursday when we were in Chemistry laboratory. We fought over something that I said about her when she didn't come to school the day before. It was probably more than a month ago. I hate to admit this myself but when I fight with someone, I fight till the end. I had a fight with another classmate of mine, Kho because I mock his father's name (I was childish at that time and I don't know the boundary between jokes and mocks). I had the fight when we were 13 or 14 (I don't remember well) and until now we're still hardly talk to each other. He does talk to me like usual but I have never start a conversation with him. It's just hard to let people trust you again after I betrayed their trust, you know, although it is my fault to begin with. That is the same feeling that I have with Bobby. I betrayed her trust and I know it's hard to build it back after that. That's why I stopped talking to her. I just don't want to build that trust back. I don't know why. Maybe I was afraid that wall of trust will crumbling down again.
PS. I've done reading Jin for the moment. I wanna find some interesting BL manga after this, LOL. Besides that, I also heard that the Gulp and Gasp drama went well. Yay!
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